So I finally finished all the twilight books. I feel the need to go through a big long list of things so I’ll put the rest under a cut for those who haven’t read all the books.

( DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVN'T READ ALL FOUR BOOKS. )

I got the Twilight books for christmas - them being twilight, new moon, eclipse and breaking dawn (for those of you who don't know). I'd seen the film and though it was okay a bit retarded at times but I still had an keen interest. Anyway so i got the books and started reading and oh my god am i hooked. like literally addicted.

there are very few things that can keep me from my sleep these days and these books are one of those things. i'm on eclipse now, which is the third book and am beggining to feel sad that i will soon be on the last and then be finished. shoot. they're just THAT GOOD.

anyway, crazy addiction to book speech over.

christmas was good, quiet then just work work work. i've got 3 days off and i'm sooo happy! like you wouldnt believe. it's taken over my life completley. ick. but three days off good.

Yay 99% of my christmas shopping has been done! How awesomely fantastic! just need to get my dad a few other things but I'll do that from asda or something. I hate town and it was raining. RAINING! lol.

I even managed to clean my room today (it was a huge mess), so over a productive day.

Ick I hate weather like this! Cold and windy. My lips are so dry and horrible, not to mention sore.

Work was okayish today. The guard decided to attack me with mens aftershave after I sprayed him with Katy Price so I smell like a man. It's 1million so it smells nice haha it's haha but still I have man scent.

OMG day off tomorrow! I get to sleep in it's amazing. I hate getting up at 7 and 8 o'clock and working 9, it just leaves you so tired.

CAN YOU SEE ME THROUGH YOUR BEDROOM WINDOW!

Lyric typing. Nice.

Well off I go.

I've been desperatly trying to write something for ages now and am getting nothing! I remember the day's when I used to write 2 fics a day! A DAY! Now I don't even do 2 a year! It's a bit sad because writing used to be such a huge part of my life and I really enjoyed it. You get a sense of achievment even if only one person enjoyed it. I can't even remember why I stoped writing or when I lost the "writing mojo" it makes me sad.

Em... the days events have been filled with work. 9 hour shifts should be made illegal then again it could be worse. I could be doing 12 hour shifts. I miss not working though, I'm lazy like that.

Meh 8 hours tommorow, it wouldn't be so bad if I got time and a half but nope. Just basic shitty pay. I want my sundays back! GIVE ME THEM BACK!

So I'm just rambling away to myself yip.

Work wasn't too bad today, which makes a change. I think it has something to do with only having to do 5 hours instead of the usual 9.

I'm cold, I hate being cold it's horrible, think i'll go watch some tv shortly to keep myself entertained.

wow, get me using LJ! I guess it amuses me slightly, which can only be a good thing right?

icons are fun. yip if only i could make them pure mega goodly. owells. off to do something unproductive.

woke up last night with a major headache! it was not fun at all, at first it wasn't so bad but it just totally killed me in the end. took me ages to get back to sleep. so i was rather tired this morning.

it's getting so cold now, i hate it. i wish i lived somewhere warm and nice.

christmas presents are going okay. just my dad and one more thing for my sister, plus secret santa at work.

got no plans fo tonight i think it will be a night in front of the tv again. *sigh*

Well, well. hasn't it been a while! I guess I kindv just forgot about LJ. I used to love this site and now I never come on. I guess I don't see the point anymore, I'll have to broaden by horizons friend wise I think.

Update on my life: Nothing has happened. Same old boring me, I just tend to work a whole lot now. It's not very fun.

Well maybe I'll start using this again, I doubt it though.

Title: Rain
Rating: PG-13
Summary: John's dying and Chas is the one who must take care of him.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything to do with Constantine. I don't own John or Chas. I also don't own the rain. Isn't it sad ]:

( Rain )

TITLE: Blood stained addiction
AUTHOR: desolatestate
DESCRIPTION: Philip Evans returns for one last story.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own the character Shadow/Lucas Woolf. The text spoken by Lucas in italics was written by harleythegreat in a roleplay from a few years back, I hope she doesn't mind me borrowing it. Also please excuse my shitty writing I haven't done it in a very long time.


( A trail of crimson stained pale white flesh... )

Okay so i havn't updated in a lonnng time. Mostly because I just write a load of crap and nobody wants to read it. So where to start?
Well I'v been working as a sales assistant in Superdrug for about 3 months. WOO DISCOUNT CARD SOON! lol. I guess it's okay it just gets realllly boring sometimes but doesn't any job. I'm actually really lucky to have it so i shouldn't complain. It's my birthday on sunday and it looks like im working which makes me mad GRR but hey i'll get over it. I never really liked birthdays anyway. Everything worked out ok with cali uni and transfering from napier. I have to register the week after next i think. i also have to send them a pic for my matric card by TOMMOROW! grr like they couldnt have told me sooner. bastards. dunno wot il do :( give them last years retardation of a picture. or take one myself? who cares. Should be starting at the end of september and continue to work weekends. dunno how i'll cope. last year i practically had a nervous breakdown over java.
My kitten is adorable and evil, he likes to eat me and scratch me and make me look like im suicidal. THANKS SO MUCH CLOUD!
Other than that life is boring.
OOOOH my boyfriends getting me an AMZING camera for my birthday, well he already has. ITS BRILL! I shall be using it forever. i just need a memory card for it :P
my head hurts :( waa. well i'm off to eat.
xxx

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i hate the rain so much. got SOAKEDDDDDD walking home from work. ick

Do you ever have one of those days where you question everything about your life? Where you wonder who you are, what your purpose is, what you believe in and what impact you will have on the world?
I guess I'm a pretty boring person. Sure sometimes I go out with friends but most of the time I’m just in my room. Listening to music, watching TV shows, on the internet. But really I'm so sick of it. I'm sick of watching life pass me by while I waste probably the best time of my life! I'm 18! I should be out there doing stuff! There are so many things I want to do! But where do I start?
I want to be a different person. I don't want to be the shy awkward girl I have always been. I guess I thought after high school I could change all that, reinvent myself but that didn't happen. I was just the same old me. And now I'm changing uni's so I have yet another chance to be who I want to be. I don't want to blow it again. I guess I just want to be someone amazing and right now I don't think I am.
All my life I’ve been invisible. The unpopular one no one really took the time to notice. I'm not amazingly good looking or brilliantly smart. I'm not overly funny or gracefully artistic. To tell you the truth I'm boring. I have no real skills or talents. I just want to be able to do something! And instead of complaining about it I really should be doing it!
Have you ever wondered what your life could've been like if you'd been someone else? Would you be any happier if you had been one of the "popular" ones? High Schools over. But I still feel like who I was then has some how defined what I should be now. I don't want to be that person. I really don't.
Haven’t you noticed life is amazing? Everything about it is so fantastically wonderful! Watching a sunrise, laying under the stars at night, the rain, thunder storms, rainbows! Sure the world can be a pretty messed up place. War, racism, sectarianism, rape, murder... death. But isn't death just a part of living? After all, the only certainty about life is death. We are all going to die. Every single person on this planet will die and that scares the hell out of me.
I don't believe in god, I don't believe in a life after death. I believe that this is it. This is what we have. 1 chance, 1 life. I just can't work out why though. Why can life be so cruel as to let us experience all the glories it holds just to take it all away from us? And what's the deal with cancer? And HIV and all the other diseases out there? I mean how fucked up can the human body get?
People are supposed to be the superior race. Above every other species on the planet yet we are bellow them all! We are destroying the planet needlessly. Nuclear weapons, carbon emissions, burning every single fossil fuel in existence. We have become so selfish! Isn’t humanity about compassion? Yet somehow everything we touch we destroy? We all need to take a good hard look at our lives because in all honesty do any of us really matter?
What have you done to make a difference? What will you be remembered for? Think about it, does any of it make any sense at all?
I don’t want to be the girl who sat back and did nothing, the one who wasted her life away because she was too lazy to live.

I wish life was like the movies. You know?
I want to do something meaninful and exciting. I want to see the world. I want to get out there and do things. I live a boring life. I don't know a lot of people... i want to matter, you know? Make a difference.
Meh.

Hmm so i wanna start driving, but it's really expensive. I think I'm gonna apply for a provisional... :P one of these days. ahaha.

i want a lot of things to change. but I know they never will.

I'm in a really weird mood. well gotta head to work soon :(

ewww cat vomit!

Dear goodness it has been a long time since i've bothered to update here. So what has been happening i hear you say? Hmm i dunno. So I have a kitten :) He's very much adorable. He's called Cloud, (yes after the FF character :P) I got him a week ago. He's about 9 weeks now, ginger and white. he loves to eat my hand and wake me up at 6am EVERY morning. damn him! trying to get him and my lucky to get used to each other it's kinda funny. Erm what else? I have a job. Working in a cloakroom at a nightclub. Hours suck. Pay is beyond shit but it'll get me some experience. Still looking for something better tho. meh. I've passed everything at uni just waiting to hear back from one subject then i'm all set for cali next year. YAY! that means going through the whole, new at uni thing all over again EAK. :( owell it's closer and I dont NEED friends anyway. So that's about it really. Start my job on wed. 11-3 i shall die when I'm home. Maybe it won't be so bad? ok that's about it.

So I havn't posted anything in a while. Decided it was about time to give everyone an update although I doubt anyone cares. So basically I've just been at uni, when I can be bothered going. It's just so boring and pointless and so far away. But Cali gave me a conditional for next year so as long as I pass everything for this year I can transfer. YAY! That's well good. I'll be saving money on the travelling, won't have to get up so early and will basically be so much more better off. I have an interview for Greggs last week I think it went okay just waiting for then to call back, the woman said within the next 7 days so that means before friday. Which by the way isnt very conventiant for me because I'm spose to be going to London on Thursday after I vote. But I CAN'T GO IF I GET THE JOB! The induction day is the saturday. So If I did go to London it would be Thursday and back Friday night :S So iunno if I should just go or not? Who knows. Dave doesn't have a job anymore. yesterday was his last day cause he quit cause they suck. So he needs a job or he'll be poor and that isn't acceptable. I need his money :P lol. Life's pretty boring really. Erm I've got like 3 or 4 weeks left of uni and then its OVER! bearing in mind im ony in 3 days a week never go in 3 days a week maybe 2. 2 x 4 = 8. DAYS LEFT OF UNI! Give or take. HAHA. Isn't it great. Summer shall be boring. If I get the job the boredom will go away. If I don't I'll have to look for something else. Might be going on holiday but I dunno. Ick class in 20 mins. It's all about file types and linex commands and stupid retarded shit I don't care about. Mite just leave after the lab cause the other class is just answering questions and I can do that whenever. I havn't decided yet. Mite just stay for the fun of it. Not going in tomorrow so I guess after this it's my weekend! WOOPWOOP! Lol i've gotta admit I have it easy and I always complain. Now if I was at Cali and I had this kinda timetable I'd be wel happy :P I could go in and when I left SHOP! Shopping is always good! I need new shoes like so bad. Havn't seen any really awesome ones though. I'll find some eventually. Haha I've been going on stickam a lot lately never really saw the point in it before but it's kinda entertaining. Anyway gotta head off in a min. Icky class. Later people.

my chemical romance tomorrow [:
well good.
so daves coming up 2moz morning, we're gnna do a whole bunch of stuff this week. he's staying til friday. yup. i'm basically avoiding uni til next week, apart from today.
got 2 test to do next week tho, java and computer systems. meh. totally gonna fail.

so on friday i went to see 300 it was rather good. yep. erm... wot else?
cali said i can transfer to year 2 of the computing program if i complete this year at napier. which is gd news. i was so ready to give up on uni.

i'm way hungry. and tired. didnt sleep much last night. i blame the retarded clocks and the fact that iv been going to bed at 2 for the past week. owell. its all good.

i shouldnt have to stay here long tho. finished my lecture. just got group work and some java to do. if i can be boothered then i can get some lunch go home and sleep forever and ever and ever.

TADA!

iunno. my brain hurts. i've had a headache since last night, made it impossible to sleep.

so at 12 or something i ended up watching a program about a transexual called lucy. yes i was very bored.

been playing final fantasy 12 a lot i swear its addictive.
just leveling up and doing the hunts and shit like that.

IT KILLLEDD THE SCARY WALL MONSTER I DIDNT HAVE TO KILL!!

lol.

hmmm. yeah. thats about all i have to say today. maybe i'll come up with some more shit later.

but like YAYYYY mcr! theyr good. gerard way is good. the whole band is good tho.
plus davids gnna be here. well not here coz this is edinburgh but u kno wot i mean. does anyone even read this shit anymore? haha.

love and stuff

it's 4am and i'm bored.

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